The first week-ish

Yeah, so sorry about the delay of this post. I've been busy...duhh. But because so many things have happened, I'm going to organize this into classes, people, and events.

CLASSES

FYS: I was with everyone in this class for all of orientation, so I got to know people pretty well (see KEVIN, DOC, TOM, MIRA, PAT). It was kinda awk at the beginning, because of various events (see THE DIVERSITY SCANDAL) but now it seems to have all blown over now. I adore the professor, she's amazing. The class also seems really interesting, it's like cool psychology stuff, which hopefully I'll like. I'm not pumped for all the writing though...but I'll deal with it. I've only had one class, so we'll see how it goes.

DRAWING: Just came back from this class, actually. IT'S SO FREAKING LONG OMG (2 hours) but it's really relaxing and pretty easy for now. People in the class are really nice and talk to each other, which is good. That's all.

FILM HISTORY: I like this class. It's really interesting...except for the textbook which is retarded and doesn't have to do with anything. The professor is interesting too, which is good. The best thing about the class, however, is that there's 6 girls and 15 guys...and most of them are ridiculously attractive. Yessssssss.

ITALIAN: Worst class ever. 8:30 in the morning, all Italian, all the time. I feel like there's a language block that just makes it ridiculously hard to learn anything in that class....it's like I hear something and 5 seconds later I forget it again. Plus, we have a quiz tomorrow so I can't go out to the gay bar with everyone else tonight....djlfsjfldsjfldsf.

FITNESS AND WELLNESS: Runner up for worst class ever. This was the class that I discovered that you actually have to look at the syllabus to see what homework you have, because YOU MIGHT HAVE A QUIZ THE NEXT DAY ON THE READING AND IF YOU DIDN'T DO IT THAT WOULD BE BAD. Not that that happened to me, of course...

PEOPLE (in no particular order)

SAM: Roommate #1. Very cute, short, blond and perky, but for some reason has a really low voice, which threw me off at first. She's really into theater and singing, which is nice. We get along really well and hang out a lot.

CAROLINE: Roommate #2. I admit, I judged her when I facebook stalked her...hahaha. She's kinda odd, but in a good way. She's also into theater but ridiculously sweet.

SARA: I had hung out with her a couple times before, but we're pretty much inseparable here. She's amazing and exactly like me except shorter and with a higher voice. I don't know what I'd do without her here :D

EMILY: Her dorm is across the hall, and she's in my room nearly as much as Sara is. She's from Florida and really artsy and out there. She has a unique look which sometimes throws people off, but she's really really sweet.

NICK: I like Nick. We haven't really been hanging out much, but we do occasionally and it's always nice to see a familiar face to remind me of the past. He was kind of miserable the first day, but I think he's found his group, so I'm happy for him.

GRANT: Not the type of kid I would normally hang out with, but for some reason I am. He's half asian and dresses really ghetto for some reason, and never stops talking about Family Guy.

CONNOR: Really nice and laid back kid. The only odd thing about him is that he has "a girlfriend in Malaysia," which may or may not be true.

KEVIN: Amazing. I'm pretty sure I talked about him last time, so I won't say anything other than that.

DOC: Another LA kid. He's kinda like Danny except more arrogant and less feminine, if that makes sense. He likes attention. A lot of attention. As much attention as he can possibly get. I don't know if I like him or not, but I end up seeing him around a lot.

TOM: Oh dear, where do I start. I guess you should read THE DIVERSITY SCANDAL to really get this. I don't really know where we stand, but I see him all the time because he's Grant's roommate, so I have to deal with him.

PAT: A football player douchebag. That's all there is to say.

THE GIRLS ON MY FLOOR: They're all going to be bunched into one category because I don't want to write a separate thing for each of them. Everyone on my floor is amazing and sweet. The end.

I can't think of anyone else, but I'm sure I'll add some more people later.

EVENTS

THE DIVERSITY SCANDAL: So basically, we saw this diversity play in our FYS groups, and I thought it was kinda interesting. I mean not AMAZING, but interesting. So we had a discussion about it in class with one of the people in the play, and it was totally fine until PAT decided to pass when we all had to go around and say something we liked about it. So that was kinda weird, and it got weirder when TOM passed too. I didn't understand why they didn't just make up shit, it seemed really disrespectful. Then all of a sudden out of nowhere TOM just walks out of the room and never comes back. Needless to say I left the meeting FUMING, and everyone was talking shit about Tom and Pat. The next day we were told that the leader of the group was really offended and we were basically the infamous FYS group in the Muhlenberg community...way to make a good start. And to top that off, Tom didn't even show up that day. So then I end up in Tom and Grant's room one night, and Tom told me that he heard that everyone was upset with him. So I told him that yeah, everyone was upset with him. So he told me that he actually had gone to the bathroom that day, and he was sick the day he hadn't showed up. So I told him that I was sorry for talking shit about him, and that he should tell people what happened. So of course, he goes to Pat to talk to, who tells him some bullshit story about how nobody was angry at him and that I was making it all up. So Tom came up to me all pissed off, and I was like why the hell would I make that up? Obviously it was just Pat being a douchebag, as usual. So whatever there was like this ridiculous tension between us and it was soooo awkward because I was with Grant and them a lot and he was always there. So eventually I just told him that I wasn't angry at him and I hoped he wasn't angry with me but that I wasn't lying, and that was that. It's still kinda awk, but at least it's tolerable now. The end.

Okay, it's like 2 in the morning and I have a quiz at 8:30. I STUDIED FOR 4 HOURS STRAIGHT BE PROUD OF ME. I'll try to post more soonnnn.

first day at college...whatttt

Today's my first day! Weirdddddness. It feels like it's been a week, at least.

So the day started off with my dad and my brother getting into a huge fight...normal day for the Noah family. So Ben didn't come to see me leave, which was kinda rude but I don't think he would have liked being there anyways so watevs. I got to my room (which looked like a prison cell at first because it has only a teeny window, but it's HUGE and I like it now) and met my roommates, Sam and Caroline. Sam is small and blonde and really into theater, and she seems nice. Caroline is also really into theater and brought more clothes than I did...like 5 x the clothing I did. We separated into our FYS groups, and we're with that group most of the time. At first I hated it because everyone kind of separated into pairs and I felt kinda lonely, but then I met KEVIN, WHO IS GAY AND ASIAN AND WE'RE GOING TO BE BFFLS. He doesn't know that yet, though. But we had a lot of fun making fun of the stupid stuff Muhlenberg had thought up of (like a video of Muhlenberg history and a skit about how to say the 'theme song'? It was bizarre). I hung out with Sara and Nick a lot, which is good. I like them a lot. There's also this girl named Emily who's really cool and artsy and albino, and she's on my floor. I was supposed to go to a party tonight, but then nobody was really sure where it was and it just didn't work out. I'm sorry for the ramblingness of this, It's like midnight and I've had like 5 hours of sleep. Tomorrow's will be better, I promise!

NEWS

I do have news!

So like, 5 minutes ago I took this 'are you over him' quiz, WHICH I NORMALLY WOULDN'T HAVE TAKEN IF I WASN'T REALLY BORED. and I answered completely honestly, AND LOOK AT THIS:

Your score is 50. While it seems you've let go and accepted that your relationship is over you clearly aren't yet over the loss of love. It's left a void in your life that you're not sure you can fill. Don't worry, once you've really moved on that void will somehow fill itself. Rest assured that you're well on your way to letting go once and for all. Good for you, you've let the healing begin!

I'VE LET THE HEALING BEGIN! YAYYYY ME!

And the truth is, really, I don't think about him much anymore. Except for now of course, but I'm writing about him so it doesn't count. I'm starting to think about new relationships, and new possiblilites. I've gotten to the point where I've kind of accepted the fact that we'll probably never speak to each other again.

I realized that I never missed him...I only missed the way I felt when I was with him. It was like the feeling and him were completely intertwined, and I couldn't differentiate between the two. But now that he's gone, I mean, I still don't have that feeling, but I realized I don't need him to get that.

What was that feeling anyways? I don't think it was love, we weren't close enough for that. Infatuation, maybe? It was something past friendship and before love...I'm not quite sure what that is.

But the point is, whatever it was can be achieved again. He isn't the only person in the world who will make me really....feel again. I got so caught up in that feeling, and I wanted it back so much that I couldn't see straight.

It wasn't him. It was never him.

And that has been my revelation of the day. Or of 5 minutes ago.

Thoughts?

another quiz (since I have nothing to write about)

Have you ever felt like you literally needed someone?
all the time, unfortunately.

Is there anything in your past that you'd like to try again?
of course! but I can't, so it's pointless to regret things.

Are you afraid to fall in love?
the opposite. i'm too willing to fall in love.

Who/what are you thinking about right now?
how boring my life is right now.

So, do you have blue eyes?
I wish.

Is there any alcohol in the fridge?
some beer maybe. nothing good.

When was the last time you wanted to punch someone in their face?
right now. at this very moment.

Has anyone told you they missed you lately?
steyecy!

Have you broken the law in the last 3 days?
I break the law EVERY day. I'm just a rebel like that.

Were you mad when you woke up this morning?

I was sick, so I was mad...does that count?

How did you get your last bruise?
I have no idea, and it's been frustrating me.

What’s more important, trust or happiness?
I think both are essential.

Can you walk in heels?
it depends how high they are.

Do you wonder "what if" a lot?
much more than I'd like to.

Have you ever forgiven someone more times than you should have?
Gahhhh. Story of my life.

Do you think it's okay for girls to have new boyfriends every other week?
I think it's stupid. AND THE SAME GOES FOR BOYS.

Do you feel like you're not good enough?
Sometimes.

Is there someone that you can go to in sweats, hair a mess and still feel comfy?
Yep, lots of people.

When did you last straighten your hair?
hmm...10th grade, maybe?

Could things possibly get any better?
I really, really, hope so.

Have you ever copied someone else's homework?
Molly's math homework. But we switch off copying each other's homework, so it evens out.

Last person you talked on the phone with?
Probably Natey.

Where was your default picture taken?
At a random army store on Hollywood Blvd. Hahaha

Is there anybody you're disappointed in right now?
Myself?

If you are being extremely quiet what does that mean?
I'm probably really tired.

Are you happy?
I'm bored.

Are you a morning person or a night person?
I'm an early evening person.

Have you made a mistake this past week?
Yes.

Do you know anyone with the same name as you?
There's a whole group of Marlee's on facebook. Does that count?

When was the last time you really laughed?
Like, 5 minutes ago watching Collin and Molly's french video.

Have you ever been involved in a high speed car chase?
YES, AS A MATTER OF FACT I WAS INVOLVED IN 19 TODAY. HOW DID YOU KNOW?

Do you own a skateboard?
Hahahaha jokes.

Which shoe do you put on first?
Left, I think?

Do you think your life story would make a great movie?
My life story would be a great dramedy.

If you could pick someone to just "disappear" and nobody would care... who?
I think by now anyone who is reading this should know who.

What is bothering you right now?
Prom zomgggg.

Have you ever read an entire book in one day?
Loads of times!

Look in your inbox, who do you have texts from?
Tricia, Benjo, Michelle, Molly

Do you sleep with one leg out from under the covers?
It depends if my room is 100 degrees or 0 degrees.

How many hours did you sleep last night?
Well, I went to bed at 7, and woke up at 9...so too many.

What's the worst thing that happened to you today?
Being sick?

Does any part of your body hurt right now?
my head and my throat gahh

How many pictures do you have saved on your computer?
You don't actually expect me to go and count them, do you?

Are you afraid of roller coasters?
Some. I don't like big drop roller coasters.

Hate letters 2

Since I loved writing the hate letters a couple months ago, I decided I'd do it again.

Dear,

Jason: WTF. THAT TEST WAS SO HARD. AND IT DIDN'T MAKE ANY SENSE. AND WHY DID YOU GIVE US A NEW PROJECT? THAT'S SO RETARDED. WE'RE 3RD TRIMESTER SENIORS. WE DON'T GET WORK. GET OVER IT.

Plane Guy: WHY HAVE YOU NOT E-MAILED ME SO I CAN PROVE THAT YOU ARE NOT A PEDOPHILE? ARE YOU REALLY THAT BUSY? AND WHY DOES IT SAY YOU HAVEN'T PASSED THE CALIFORNIA BAR EXAM. YOU CAN'T BE A LAWYER WITHOUT PASSING THAT, DIPSHIT.

Jeff: STOP YELLING AT ME FOR NOT WRITING MY YEARBOOK STORIES I'M WORKING ON IT.

Freshmen and Sophomores who I sent the group study message to: OH, SO NOW YOU DECIDE TO REPLY. AFTER WE CHANGE THE STORY. GOOD JOB. REALLY CONVENIENT.

Dorian: I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT TO SAY HERE. FUCK YOU.

Fishville: WTF STOP CHANGING AND MAKING ALL MY FISH DIE OR BECOME SICK. HOW DO FISH EVEN BECOME SICK ANYWAYS? IT'S NOT EVEN POSSIBLE.

Dad: NO, THE YEARBOOK ISN'T DONE YET STOP ASKING EVERY NIGHT.

Mom: STOP TELLING ME YOU THINK I HAVE AN EATING DISORDER IT'S STUPID AND I DON'T I JUST SLEPT THROUGH DINNER CALM DOWN I GOT FOOD AFTER I WOKE UP.

Rob: IT WOULD BE REALLY CONVENIENT IF YOU WOULD EMAIL ME ABOUT MY SENIOR INITIATIVE. IT WOULD BE USEFUL NOW. WTF IS TAKING YOU SO LONG?

XM Radio: IF YOU DO NOT STOP PLAYING BREAKEVEN BY THE SCRIPT, I WILL PERSONALLY MURDER YOU.

Mike: SO YOU HAVE A NEW GIRLFRIEND NOW, HUH? WELL THAT'S FANTASTIC. SHE LOOKS LIKE AN UGLY VERSION OF YOUR SISTER, JUST FYI. AND THAT STUPID PROFILE WATCHER THING YOU POSTED ON MY WALL. NOT GOOD. I HATE YOU. YOU ARE A MANWHORE. AND EVERYONE KNOWS IT. I'M GOING TO START AN 'I HATE MIKE' CLUB AND EVERYONE IS GOING TO JOIN. OH AND BTW, IF YOU'RE A HEARTLESS JERK DON'T JOIN THE GROUP I HATE WHEN GIRLS STEREOTYPE GUYS AS HEARTLESS JERKS. IT'S HYPOCRITICAL. SO STOP THAT. AND THANK YOU FOR BREAKING THE BIRTHDAY TRADITION. EVEN IF I DID DELETE YOU ON FACEBOOK, YOU SHOULD HAVE CALLED ANYWAYS. EVEN THOUGH I PROBABLY WOULDN'T HAVE ANSWERED. BUT MAYBE I WOULD HAVE. AND I'M NOT STALKING YOU. SO STOP THINKING THAT. EVEN THOUGH YOU HAVEN'T DIRECTLY TOLD ME THAT. AND I HATE YOU. A LOT. HAVE I MENTIONED THAT? STOP MAKING ME CRY WHEN I LISTEN TO SAD SONGS. FUCK YOU. GO DIE IN A HOLE. OH WAIT, YOU LIVE IN LOS FUCKING ALAMITOS. OKAY THEN I GUESS YOU CAN JUST STAY THERE IN THAT LITTLE HELL HOLE.

Felicia: FUCK LOGS NOBODY LIKES THEM JUST TEACH US HOW TO USE A CALCULATOR WE DON'T NEED TO KNOW ALL THIS SHIT.

Lorraine: YOU ARE SUCH A PASSIVE AGGRESSIVE LITTLE BITCH WHO IS HORRIBLE AT TEACHING AND DOESN'T KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT GRAPHIC DESIGN AND YOU MAKE ME HATE ART WHICH TAKES A SHITLOAD OF TALENT GOOD JOB.

The end. :)

just a regular night

Things I accomplished while Molly told me about her night over IM:

-brushed my teeth

-washed my face

-took my meds

-played three games of Text Twist

-googled Thumbelina

-read the entire Thumbelina wikipedia article

-typed 'haha' three times

-looked around room for phone charger

-realized phone charger is in my parent's room

-played one more game of Text Twist

-pondered life and the horridness of this day

-wrote this blog post

total time spent: 30 minutes

So yeah, I'd say it takes a while for Molly to tell me about her day. Hahahaha. Still love her to pieces, though.

i feel like i'm in an episode of dateline

Let me start this post off just by saying:

I am a complete and total idiot.

Okay, now that we have gotten that out the way, let me continue my story.

So, sometimes when I'm bored/lonely I ask random internet people to write me letters on Mystery Google. Now, I know by now Natey is saying WTF BAD IDEA MARLEE. I know Natey, calm down. I will explain. Usually the letters are just funny stories that make me laugh. But occasionally they're people asking for advice, or just wanting to talk. So sometimes I answer those. Okay, I lied. Most of the time I answer those. And usually we have conversations that last for like 20 minutes and then it's over and that's the end of it. I KNOW YOU THINK THIS IS WEIRD, NATEY. BUT STACEY UNDERSTANDS. IT'S NORMAL.

So two nights ago, I was having one of those similar situations. It was with this guy my age named Nick who lived in Michigan. We were just having a conversation, and the conversation just turned into questions about ourselves and blah blah blah. He didn't know my real name or anything, so I didn't think anything of it. And talking turned into a bit of flirting and STFU NATE I KNOW YOU'RE SPAZZING OUT BY NOW. So basically it was a bad idea, but I was feeling kind of sad because it was the 6 month anniversary of me not talking to the R and yeah. And then it got kind of weird. He asked about my long distance phone plan, and how he was angry that I didn't live closer, and how I felt about long distance relationships. I KNOW YOU ARE BASICALLY ON THE PHONE WITH THE POLICE RIGHT NOW, NATEY. CALM DOWN. So then I figured I should probably figure out who this guy is. So after insane google searching, because I had tried to find his facebook and failed, I finally found his facebook profile.

And let's just say.....there are few words to describe him. He reminded me of Chris Farley. Only fatter and creepier looking. NATE I KNOW YOU ARE SAYING I TOLD YOU SO BY NOW, AND I KNOW. IT WAS A TOTAL I TOLD YOU SO MOMENT. I GET IT.

And to add to all that, HE TOLD ME HE WAS A DEMOCRAT BUT HE WAS REALLY A DIE HARD REPUBLICAN.

So there are 3 lessons from this story:

1) Don't form relationships with people on Mystery Google. Unless you are Stacey, who seems to have extreme luck with finding the insane romantic cute ones.

2) If you do happen to be forming a relationship on Mystery Google, FIGURE OUT WHO THE FUCK THEY ARE FIRST. JUST A TIDBIT OF ADVICE.

3) Don't ever trust Republicans.

So now I should get back to studying for midterms. AKA watching more TV.