NEWS

I do have news!

So like, 5 minutes ago I took this 'are you over him' quiz, WHICH I NORMALLY WOULDN'T HAVE TAKEN IF I WASN'T REALLY BORED. and I answered completely honestly, AND LOOK AT THIS:

Your score is 50. While it seems you've let go and accepted that your relationship is over you clearly aren't yet over the loss of love. It's left a void in your life that you're not sure you can fill. Don't worry, once you've really moved on that void will somehow fill itself. Rest assured that you're well on your way to letting go once and for all. Good for you, you've let the healing begin!

I'VE LET THE HEALING BEGIN! YAYYYY ME!

And the truth is, really, I don't think about him much anymore. Except for now of course, but I'm writing about him so it doesn't count. I'm starting to think about new relationships, and new possiblilites. I've gotten to the point where I've kind of accepted the fact that we'll probably never speak to each other again.

I realized that I never missed him...I only missed the way I felt when I was with him. It was like the feeling and him were completely intertwined, and I couldn't differentiate between the two. But now that he's gone, I mean, I still don't have that feeling, but I realized I don't need him to get that.

What was that feeling anyways? I don't think it was love, we weren't close enough for that. Infatuation, maybe? It was something past friendship and before love...I'm not quite sure what that is.

But the point is, whatever it was can be achieved again. He isn't the only person in the world who will make me really....feel again. I got so caught up in that feeling, and I wanted it back so much that I couldn't see straight.

It wasn't him. It was never him.

And that has been my revelation of the day. Or of 5 minutes ago.

Thoughts?

another quiz (since I have nothing to write about)

Have you ever felt like you literally needed someone?
all the time, unfortunately.

Is there anything in your past that you'd like to try again?
of course! but I can't, so it's pointless to regret things.

Are you afraid to fall in love?
the opposite. i'm too willing to fall in love.

Who/what are you thinking about right now?
how boring my life is right now.

So, do you have blue eyes?
I wish.

Is there any alcohol in the fridge?
some beer maybe. nothing good.

When was the last time you wanted to punch someone in their face?
right now. at this very moment.

Has anyone told you they missed you lately?
steyecy!

Have you broken the law in the last 3 days?
I break the law EVERY day. I'm just a rebel like that.

Were you mad when you woke up this morning?

I was sick, so I was mad...does that count?

How did you get your last bruise?
I have no idea, and it's been frustrating me.

What’s more important, trust or happiness?
I think both are essential.

Can you walk in heels?
it depends how high they are.

Do you wonder "what if" a lot?
much more than I'd like to.

Have you ever forgiven someone more times than you should have?
Gahhhh. Story of my life.

Do you think it's okay for girls to have new boyfriends every other week?
I think it's stupid. AND THE SAME GOES FOR BOYS.

Do you feel like you're not good enough?
Sometimes.

Is there someone that you can go to in sweats, hair a mess and still feel comfy?
Yep, lots of people.

When did you last straighten your hair?
hmm...10th grade, maybe?

Could things possibly get any better?
I really, really, hope so.

Have you ever copied someone else's homework?
Molly's math homework. But we switch off copying each other's homework, so it evens out.

Last person you talked on the phone with?
Probably Natey.

Where was your default picture taken?
At a random army store on Hollywood Blvd. Hahaha

Is there anybody you're disappointed in right now?
Myself?

If you are being extremely quiet what does that mean?
I'm probably really tired.

Are you happy?
I'm bored.

Are you a morning person or a night person?
I'm an early evening person.

Have you made a mistake this past week?
Yes.

Do you know anyone with the same name as you?
There's a whole group of Marlee's on facebook. Does that count?

When was the last time you really laughed?
Like, 5 minutes ago watching Collin and Molly's french video.

Have you ever been involved in a high speed car chase?
YES, AS A MATTER OF FACT I WAS INVOLVED IN 19 TODAY. HOW DID YOU KNOW?

Do you own a skateboard?
Hahahaha jokes.

Which shoe do you put on first?
Left, I think?

Do you think your life story would make a great movie?
My life story would be a great dramedy.

If you could pick someone to just "disappear" and nobody would care... who?
I think by now anyone who is reading this should know who.

What is bothering you right now?
Prom zomgggg.

Have you ever read an entire book in one day?
Loads of times!

Look in your inbox, who do you have texts from?
Tricia, Benjo, Michelle, Molly

Do you sleep with one leg out from under the covers?
It depends if my room is 100 degrees or 0 degrees.

How many hours did you sleep last night?
Well, I went to bed at 7, and woke up at 9...so too many.

What's the worst thing that happened to you today?
Being sick?

Does any part of your body hurt right now?
my head and my throat gahh

How many pictures do you have saved on your computer?
You don't actually expect me to go and count them, do you?

Are you afraid of roller coasters?
Some. I don't like big drop roller coasters.

Hate letters 2

Since I loved writing the hate letters a couple months ago, I decided I'd do it again.

Dear,

Jason: WTF. THAT TEST WAS SO HARD. AND IT DIDN'T MAKE ANY SENSE. AND WHY DID YOU GIVE US A NEW PROJECT? THAT'S SO RETARDED. WE'RE 3RD TRIMESTER SENIORS. WE DON'T GET WORK. GET OVER IT.

Plane Guy: WHY HAVE YOU NOT E-MAILED ME SO I CAN PROVE THAT YOU ARE NOT A PEDOPHILE? ARE YOU REALLY THAT BUSY? AND WHY DOES IT SAY YOU HAVEN'T PASSED THE CALIFORNIA BAR EXAM. YOU CAN'T BE A LAWYER WITHOUT PASSING THAT, DIPSHIT.

Jeff: STOP YELLING AT ME FOR NOT WRITING MY YEARBOOK STORIES I'M WORKING ON IT.

Freshmen and Sophomores who I sent the group study message to: OH, SO NOW YOU DECIDE TO REPLY. AFTER WE CHANGE THE STORY. GOOD JOB. REALLY CONVENIENT.

Dorian: I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT TO SAY HERE. FUCK YOU.

Fishville: WTF STOP CHANGING AND MAKING ALL MY FISH DIE OR BECOME SICK. HOW DO FISH EVEN BECOME SICK ANYWAYS? IT'S NOT EVEN POSSIBLE.

Dad: NO, THE YEARBOOK ISN'T DONE YET STOP ASKING EVERY NIGHT.

Mom: STOP TELLING ME YOU THINK I HAVE AN EATING DISORDER IT'S STUPID AND I DON'T I JUST SLEPT THROUGH DINNER CALM DOWN I GOT FOOD AFTER I WOKE UP.

Rob: IT WOULD BE REALLY CONVENIENT IF YOU WOULD EMAIL ME ABOUT MY SENIOR INITIATIVE. IT WOULD BE USEFUL NOW. WTF IS TAKING YOU SO LONG?

XM Radio: IF YOU DO NOT STOP PLAYING BREAKEVEN BY THE SCRIPT, I WILL PERSONALLY MURDER YOU.

Mike: SO YOU HAVE A NEW GIRLFRIEND NOW, HUH? WELL THAT'S FANTASTIC. SHE LOOKS LIKE AN UGLY VERSION OF YOUR SISTER, JUST FYI. AND THAT STUPID PROFILE WATCHER THING YOU POSTED ON MY WALL. NOT GOOD. I HATE YOU. YOU ARE A MANWHORE. AND EVERYONE KNOWS IT. I'M GOING TO START AN 'I HATE MIKE' CLUB AND EVERYONE IS GOING TO JOIN. OH AND BTW, IF YOU'RE A HEARTLESS JERK DON'T JOIN THE GROUP I HATE WHEN GIRLS STEREOTYPE GUYS AS HEARTLESS JERKS. IT'S HYPOCRITICAL. SO STOP THAT. AND THANK YOU FOR BREAKING THE BIRTHDAY TRADITION. EVEN IF I DID DELETE YOU ON FACEBOOK, YOU SHOULD HAVE CALLED ANYWAYS. EVEN THOUGH I PROBABLY WOULDN'T HAVE ANSWERED. BUT MAYBE I WOULD HAVE. AND I'M NOT STALKING YOU. SO STOP THINKING THAT. EVEN THOUGH YOU HAVEN'T DIRECTLY TOLD ME THAT. AND I HATE YOU. A LOT. HAVE I MENTIONED THAT? STOP MAKING ME CRY WHEN I LISTEN TO SAD SONGS. FUCK YOU. GO DIE IN A HOLE. OH WAIT, YOU LIVE IN LOS FUCKING ALAMITOS. OKAY THEN I GUESS YOU CAN JUST STAY THERE IN THAT LITTLE HELL HOLE.

Felicia: FUCK LOGS NOBODY LIKES THEM JUST TEACH US HOW TO USE A CALCULATOR WE DON'T NEED TO KNOW ALL THIS SHIT.

Lorraine: YOU ARE SUCH A PASSIVE AGGRESSIVE LITTLE BITCH WHO IS HORRIBLE AT TEACHING AND DOESN'T KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT GRAPHIC DESIGN AND YOU MAKE ME HATE ART WHICH TAKES A SHITLOAD OF TALENT GOOD JOB.

The end. :)