things are looking up

I've been very happy lately, which seems very strange considering the weird emotional mess I've been recently. I guess once I went through that, it was just over. Weird.

So I made up with Molly and Lindsey. They gave their side of the story, and it made sense enough that I decided it wasn't worth fighting over. Molly and I had a huggggge fight at her house though. And I've never done well with confrontation. It was just horrible and I'm glad it's over with.

The Spizzwinks came to Windward a couple days ago, and I almost ran into a bit of a catastrophe. They sang at MMM, and Molly was convinced that one of the guys looked EXACTLY like the R. So then I started believing it too, and yeah, from a distance they did look really similar. But when I went to their concert the next night, I realized that he looked absolutely nothing like him, and Molly was crazy. So I stopped freaking out.

There was this one guy in the group who was GORGEOUS. Like, he had to be over 6 feet, and was really pale and had bright blue eyes. And he was a fantastic singer which just made him even more attractive. It made me sad that I don't go to Yale, because now he is gone forever and I am sad. The weird thing was Danny apparently also loves this guy. He never stops talking about him, and when they sang at the concert together Danny was standing WAYYYYY too close to him. Like everyone noticed. It's like just when I'm sure Danny is straight he makes me rethink it. But the guy is mine, and Danny will have to wallow in misery. So there.

So I think I'm starting to get over the R. It's weird, because I thought it was impossible a couple days ago. But I'm starting to think about him less and less, and I don't really feel anything anymore when I think about him. Never talking again doesn't bug me anymore. It's good for me anyways, as I'm going to be in college soon and there will be tons of new distractions and it's no use for me to wallow over an old one.

Plane guy also e-mailed me back today, which means that I don't have some horrible weird non-message responding disease! Yay!

Sorry for the quick summaryness of this. I'm in school and I'm tired and have school stuff. Gahhhh is it May yet???